Right.

I just... yeah.

Didn't go to the doctor. Why? I don't know...other than, I just didn't want to deal with it.

Friday is the year anniversary of my father's death. I don't know how I feel - but I've been quick to tears all week - so I think that probably indicates how I'm feeling.

All I have to say at this point is just this: Why? Why to everything. Just everything...why?